Feelings, misty water colored feelings
I have lived most of my life understanding that there are circumstances in life that create feelings that are often contrary to the word of God. For instance, I'm sure you like me have felt hopeless at one point or another. Well, Romans 15:13 says that we serve, "the God of all hope." So reality is that there is no circumstance on earth that is truly hopeless. We just have to ask the God of all hope to fill us with hope for our current circumstance.
The same is true with other emotions: fear, loneliness, etc. "God has not given us a spirit of fear." "God places the lonely in families." (You can look up the references easier than I can, you gave google.)
Perhaps that is why I don't know what to write. I am in a constant state of having feelings that I know are not true, according to the Kingdom of God. So every moment I am warring in my spirit to choose to believe the truth.
I am living a sort of Maslov's pyramid of necessities. We cannot focus on spirituality or even relationships until we get the foundational things taken care of. I have food and shelter. But I don't know that I feel in control of my environment.
If you've ever tried to tune a radio to a station with a dial, then you know the feeling of hearing mostly static and the hope when you begin to hear sound. But fine tuning is difficult. It takes great discernment to know how to rotate the dials, to know what sounds to press into and what sounds to bypass.
My daily life is a fine tuning experiment. There is dense fog in the atmosphere, which makes fine tuning incredibly difficult. I am tuning my relationships with co-workers who come from a very different culture than I do. I am fine tuning the relationships with my students. I am learning what the boundaries are for discipline, encouragement, etc. Every teacher has an animal cut out on their desk with their name. I chose red construction paper and the animal the elephant. I assumed red would be a good choice. It's lucky in the Chinese culture. Elephants are wise animals. My co-workers were shocked. They didn't tell me why. They whispered in Chinese. Their colors are pastels and they have kittens and rabbits. I didn't discern this one well. Do I want to fit in or stand out? Is it even possible to fit in? Should I just be me and let the chips fall where they may?
The fine tuning hits every area of my life. Spiritual, mental, physical, financial, relational, etc. I need greater discernment. Protip: A great way to increase your discernment is to spend time with the original source. If you want to be able to pick up Bach's 5th symphony on the radio, you need to listen to it over and over. That way if you hear just one note of it, you'll know that you've heard the true sound. The same is true spiritually. If you want to hear God, you need to spend time with God, not Netflix. #notetoself. #preachingtomyself
Anyways, gotta go to work. Anyone have any protips on fine tuning culture?
The same is true with other emotions: fear, loneliness, etc. "God has not given us a spirit of fear." "God places the lonely in families." (You can look up the references easier than I can, you gave google.)
Perhaps that is why I don't know what to write. I am in a constant state of having feelings that I know are not true, according to the Kingdom of God. So every moment I am warring in my spirit to choose to believe the truth.
I am living a sort of Maslov's pyramid of necessities. We cannot focus on spirituality or even relationships until we get the foundational things taken care of. I have food and shelter. But I don't know that I feel in control of my environment.
If you've ever tried to tune a radio to a station with a dial, then you know the feeling of hearing mostly static and the hope when you begin to hear sound. But fine tuning is difficult. It takes great discernment to know how to rotate the dials, to know what sounds to press into and what sounds to bypass.
My daily life is a fine tuning experiment. There is dense fog in the atmosphere, which makes fine tuning incredibly difficult. I am tuning my relationships with co-workers who come from a very different culture than I do. I am fine tuning the relationships with my students. I am learning what the boundaries are for discipline, encouragement, etc. Every teacher has an animal cut out on their desk with their name. I chose red construction paper and the animal the elephant. I assumed red would be a good choice. It's lucky in the Chinese culture. Elephants are wise animals. My co-workers were shocked. They didn't tell me why. They whispered in Chinese. Their colors are pastels and they have kittens and rabbits. I didn't discern this one well. Do I want to fit in or stand out? Is it even possible to fit in? Should I just be me and let the chips fall where they may?
The fine tuning hits every area of my life. Spiritual, mental, physical, financial, relational, etc. I need greater discernment. Protip: A great way to increase your discernment is to spend time with the original source. If you want to be able to pick up Bach's 5th symphony on the radio, you need to listen to it over and over. That way if you hear just one note of it, you'll know that you've heard the true sound. The same is true spiritually. If you want to hear God, you need to spend time with God, not Netflix. #notetoself. #preachingtomyself
Anyways, gotta go to work. Anyone have any protips on fine tuning culture?
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