Adventure is not for the faint of heart

When you  stwp  outaide of  your comfort zone and face new challenges, you realize what kind of mettle you are made of. Scripturally, this is analagous to the wine press or the oil press. In order for oil and wine to be produced, the grapes and the olives must be presses and squeezed. They give everything of themselves and are reborn in a new way. Kinda like, "unless a seed falls to the ground an dies it will not bear much fruit.."

thats what life feels like right now. pressed, squeezed, and hopefully producing something worthwhile in the next season. everything is a challenge: doing laundry like its the 1800's and hanging it to dry, sleeping on  bed hard as a rock, no friends after 5 weeks, craptastic internet connections, etc. i know it sounds like i am complaining, but really i am just pointing out that these are the tests that i face and i get to choose how to respond to. For 5 weeks i have complained and whined. i hope to change that now. i want to turn a new leaf. 

i dont know how long i will be here. i do know that many people sacrificed money, office managers, friendships, family time and more just so i can come and have an adventure. forgive me For complaining. forgive me for taking this opportunity for granted. 

i am going to make the best out of this.

Thanks again to everyone who gave money, sent encouraging words, and helped in a thousand other ways. 

God is good, he is with me and thats enough!

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